My word for last year, 2019, was revive. I had been feeling weird, different, possibly it was burnout but most likely it was a lot of things building up causing me to want some revival. To breathe some life back into things after being a little ho hum for a little too long. What I think I’ve learned while trying to do this, is that some things don’t need to be revived, some things need to let lie, to pass on. This takes time and isn’t easy. Sometimes it’s the letting go is harder than the building up.
While I think it was necessary to go through the period of trying to re-work things and bring things back to life, I now need to move on from that. If you, too, are needing this new decade to let go of old ways that your precious time isn’t worthy of reviving. Then know this… (I am saying this to myself as well because it isn’t easy.) Just because we are making the decision to move on, it’s not a failure. It can look to some as “giving up”, but guess what?! That’s ok. It’s ok to give up, move on, do something else. Don’t let the fear of that stop you from doing something better than what you’re doing now.
New decade, new spirit full of courage. That’s what I’m going to keep telling myself, over and over. I think it can be easy to just pick a word that seems fitting, but to actually live in that word all year, is a challenge. Even if it means writing little notes or reminders – do it. And even if it’s scary – do it anyway. I wasn’t going to pick this word. I initially had refresh because I felt like I wanted to hit the refresh button on some things, but then I read this…
It kind of hit me that I was playing it safe because I was scared to give up control and trust in new things. So in 2020, I’m going to courageously let go, take a deep breath, trust in God over anything else, and make a change. Since this is the end of a decade, I thought it would be interesting to go back and take a look at my other words. In 2013, I bought a retail flower shop so that’s when I started picking a word for the year.
Here it is! Top IG photo from 2019! PS- I took this picture on a trip in Cali.